What improvements am I making?

What improvements am I making?

2013:

I'm trying to get better at organizing my life. Cleared up my desk for first time with no clutter on it. Working on making schedules to have routine tasks.

2014:

I've decided my 'One Little Word' to be FOCUS. I get distracted very easily. So, I'm hoping to work on that. As it is, I've made some major improvements in reaching my goals. Scrapped more than I ever have, made more photobooks for gifts, learned to create lists for reminders/tasks and using them on regular basis. That alone has helped me a lot on staying focused or making sure that I get things done. Just need to continue doing it more often!

2015:

I've made huge improvement in CrossFit. I'm getting stronger and faster everyday.

2016:

Last two years have been major ups and downs. I've gotten up from bottom up and there is no looking back. Very pleased to say that kids and I made a great team over the last year and overcome every obstacle. Looking forward to see what 2017 brings for us all.

2017:
I don't think I've made much improvement in any area. However, I've got a better job, so I won't need to depend on Avni as much. Neil has finished his first semester at SFSU in dorm. Pooja has a better job. JK is actually earning money now, as little as he contributes at home, he's still earning. That's a first.

2018:
I've been reading a lot more this year. I read 45 books this year! I think that's the most I've read in a year so far. Lots to put in practice.

After two years of break in Crossfit, I've made major improvement in last 6 months by going about 2-3 days a week. It had been once a week or sometimes only once a month!

I've set 100 goals to achieve in 1000 days and working on many of them. It gives a direction on what to do on free time and not just let the time waste away, rather doing things intentionally.

Did I smile or frown more today?

2012:
As much as I hate to say, it has to be more frown. Started my day with attending 'pooja'/services for Geetaben's mom who passed away last week. There, I also learned that her husband, Vinit, had suffered from cancer last year. That alone is enough to put a damper on your mood.

Then, JK started talking about getting a new car for Pooja (or giving mine to Pooja and getting me a new car), which wasn't exactly something to smile about when we're still uncertain about our finances.

Not having any decent furniture in my room really has me going too. This morning, I wanted to pick a white dress from the bag, after 2 attempts of picking out wrong ones after moving everything from top of the bag and in front of the bag.. I just about had it!

2013:
Update: I did end up giving my car to Pooja and buying one for me. I'm glad that I was able to put almost $8000 down payment, but still not happy about having to take out the loan. My goal was to pay it off by end of the year, but obviously, that didn't happen. Thanks to losing $10K to home deposit that didn't work out.

BUT... I definitely smiles more than frowned today. I worked from mom's home. Pinal was leaving for Chicago at 3:30, so I was glad to be able to spend the day with her. We went out for a walk and had a lunch in the backyard. Great memories!

2017:
hate to say, but more frown than smile, at least at home. At least I have a better job now, something definitely to smile about (Tesla). The car mentioned in 2013 got totaled in 2015 (was kind of a lemon anyway - BMW SUV), and leased Toyota Prius. Hoping to buying it off when the lease ends.

Dh has no grasp of finances of home and that frustrates me more than anything. He's been Uber driving, but most of his earnings goes to pay off his own expenses.

had a great time with Pinal, her family and Pooja being home. Definitely all smiles there!

Worked with Shirley Beaudrew today and had good time talking with her. Going to Doug's Christmas party and meeting up with crossfit friends. Sure to have great time there.

2018:
Definitely smiles! At work, I noticed the email from Elon Musk about Full Self Drive Test Program and he was offering free autopilot software and rebate for premium interior totaling $10000 discount. So after talking to Pinal and JK , I decided to go for it!! I had planned to surprise Neil and Avni by just taking them to pick up the car in the morning, but later, the delivery time got changed to evening and I knew I wouldn't be able to get them to come with me (NYE).

Because of slow work, I ended up coming home an hour early, so I Called Avni on my way home. They had just come home from their Yosemite trip. I couldn't wait to tell them about the car an told them over the phone. Neil was super excited about it. Avni was happy too, but a bit comprehensive about the  'unnecessary purchase'. Anyway, When I got home, they were both home and I Got to spend some time with them before Avni headed off to her home.

Today I felt

2012:
Major accomplishment!!!! I've been wanting to clean out my desk, make it more organized forever and I finally did it!!! It's functional, tiny and neat! Let's hope I can keep it like this on regular basis!

2013:
Happy! We took kids' photoshoot and pics turned out so great!!!! I stayed at mom's home overnight and worked from home on Monday.

2018:
Energetic. I got so much done yesterday that I want to continue that momentum today and keep on going! Of course, I didn't get enough sleep because of that and I might crash as soon as I get home, but I still want to get few things done when I get home.

Also, adventurous and risk taker for making a spontaneous purchase of Tesla car!

What's worth fighting for?

2012:
Something that you strongly believe in. Injustice.

2013:
I've given up fighting for anything. Just go with the flow.. if you don't like the flow, change the direction/path.

2018:
for your principles.

How much did I eat today?

2012:
Well, since it's Thursday today, not very much! Had a banana, some craisins, few 'rasmalai' at mom's home and routine dinner (4 rotis, shaak, dal).

2013:
I took biryani and yogurt for lunch from home. I love making biryani (made it for Christmas) but hardly eat much of it on the day I cook. So, I enjoyed eating leftovers. For dinner, it was usual.

The music genre I listen to the most is...

2012:
I usually set my iPod/iTune on shuffle mode so that I get to listen to everything. But I do like to listen to soft music the most. And if I'm listening to playlist, it's usually instrumental or religious music.

2013:
Mostly Bollywood music or my audio recordings from when I visit Santram in India. I love to get lost in that time I spend in India thru my music recordings.

2018:
soft music, pop, and bollywood with lots of bhajans, dhoons mixed in.

What was my weakness today?

2012:
Being good to those who can care less about me. There is just no such thing as appreciation!

2013:
Snagging those chocolate cookies that dad gave out to all kids. I might've grabbed one too many of those. They're so good!

What is one thing I was told today that I don't want to forget?

2012:
It's been very quiet day today. No one at wok due to Christmas Eve. No one was online. No kids at home, they're at Arnav's home. So, I haven't talk to anyone at all whole day. At least nothing that needs to be remembered.

2013:
Same as last year. quiet day. I did go to mom's home before going home though.

2018:
Only the opposite. Want to remember everything about the day. It was perfect in every way. Neil and I left home at noon to go to mom's home. Pooja and and Avni had just got there when we got there. We spent entire day watching TV show The Crown on Netflix and played the game Trekking - The National Parks entire day. Actually, until 1AM!!!

Who do I wish had been part of my day?

2012:
No doubt, Pinal! I was at mom's home tonight and Pinal's name came in conversation quite a few times. I wish she was living closer here where we could get together on regular basis.

2013:
My wish came true! Spent entire day today with Pinal! She just came here last night at 12:30, so kids and I stayed overnight. I worked from home and spent time with her. Took a walking break from work (as I normally do in afternoon anyway) and went for a walk with her, ate lunch in the backyard and just relaxed for a bit before getting back to work. After my work was done, we sat down for a bit to watch TV, went to Costco for some quick grocery shopping and had dinner together before heading home. It was the perfect day!

2018:
Of course, Pinal! Even kids were waiting for her to book her tickets till last minute. It's just so much fun having her and the kids at Christmas time. We've told her to book the tickets for next Christmas already!

Who is the strongest person I know?

2012:
Can I just say, me? :) If I can be fair, I suppose JK is strong too! Nothing has been able to break him so far and he keeps going. Other than just us, there are many friends that are strong or stronger than me in different aspects. But there is one lady in girl scout that stands out. She's physically disabled due to accident at work, yet she is unwilling to just sit back and feel sorry for herself. She's active in her troop in every way she can.

2013:
I would say all of my friends that are single moms have to be very strong to survive and raise kids.

2018:

Was I a positive or negative person today?

2012:
I started out being a positive person. But as day went on and negativity kept piling on me... even though I know that I shouldn't let it get to me. I did let it get to me and in turn, I ended up being negative. I hate when I let that happen to me! :(

2013:
Definitely positive for most part! Went to Melanie's Christmas party in the evening. Had a great time catching up with her and others.

2018:
Definitely positive. There were moments that triggered me to e negative, but I decided not to waste my energy on that and keep on  moving. It sure made a difference in rest of my day.

Today, I chose to

2012:
let go of my grudges and move on. I also decided on my focus for 2013. I want to get better at scrapbooking, memory keeping and mastering skills of photoshop and photo editing. I will be trying my best to scrap almost everyday and trying out new technique in every layout.

2013:
Keep thinking positive about my future. There is no other way. I might even update my resume and apply at Workday.
Update about last year: 2013 has been the best year for me as far as scrapbooking goes! I scrapped 4 photobooks (Yosemite, Urbanathon and Alaska), 2 versions of calendars finished and printed before November(!) and almost done with Project Life. I've already got the book for Jan-June printed!

2018:
There is Christmas party for HomeInstead caregivers. I've been tempted to skip it considering I've been working for 12 hours and I haven't brought change of clothes. But I think I'm just going to go ahead and go visit everyone. I need to get out more often and see more people.

What is the last place I visited online?

2012:
The Lily Pad store.. to shop and download freebies! Got some 4x6 photo templates to use for P365 pages.

2013:
JustFab.com I got the email about the special going on. Free shutterfly with with any purchase. So, I thought about checking out the boots. I already have 1 credit for the boots, so I wouldn't be spending any extra money on it, but still haven't been able to decide on the boots. I might pass on the deal, but I really can use the free book credit since I need to print a book for Coach Brian.

2018:
YouTube.. watching stupid Ambani videos.

What are three things I need to do tomorrow?

2012:
I need to call about sweatshirts for boy scouts.
I need to contact eBay seller regarding the nail polish I order over two months that I still haven't received yet.
I need to get a life!

2013:
Go to CrossFit in the morning.
Go to Costco to buy wrapping papers on the way home.
Wrap the photobooks to get started on our brand new Christmas tradition.

2018:
Wake up a bit earlier so that I have enough time to tune in to Patricia Moreno's live video for The Miracle Morning. She's very energetic and I love her warm up affirmation program.
Go to work.
Talk to Neil about when he's coming home, how his finals are going.

What was the first thing I saw when I woke up this morning?

2012:
Of course, my cell phone. That's my alarm clock and morning newspaper! :)

2013:
Yeap, my cell phone.

2018:
Other than usual cell phone, all the exercise equipments at Crossfit.

How was my day today?

2012:
It was busy. JK has volunteered for food for Rotary club's christmas/Diwali party. So, I made palak paneer and jalapeño popper dip for 50+ people all on my own. Also made french onion soup sandwich for lunch. Oh.. also made waffles for breakfast. And while JK made pasta for dinner, I made garlic bread. Busy, busy day in the kitchen! Ended the day with watching the movie This Means War while straightening hair for Avni.

2013:
Not bad! Went to work.. was supposed to take Neil to Boy Scouts, but JK volunteered because Ba isn't feeling well. I really wanted to go though, because boys were going to make gingerbread houses for competition! Well, that gave me extra 2 hours and I used them to scrap 2 pages! So, it was a productive use of the evening!

2018:
Sundays at work are pretty much always slow and boring. However, we had potluck (Nacho bar) and secret Santa gift exchange (I got backpack! YAY!), so that was exciting. I've also starting working on one report. That is mentally challenging until I get the hang of it. I did enjoy that.

Pooja is coming home today!!! Landing at SFO as I write this!

She spent an hour or two at Neil's apartment, had dinner with him and then Avni brought her home. We spent about an hour over dinner table and enjoyed our time. I shared my DNA results from 23andme with them. It was fun to look thru it. Funny thing is, Pooja was planning to buy me the kit from 23andme, because it's totally something mom would like to get done!! lol I guess I ruined her plan by getting it done right before Christmas! ut I had wanted to get it done for over 2 yrs and when I saw it on Black Friday sale and I I had budget for it, I just went for it.

I showed the backpack I got for secret Santa gift and Avni wasn't happy about it, Apparently, she bought me the backpack for Christmas gift too! I'll see if she ends up changing it or give me the backpack anyway. I did tell her that I have no problem with two of them.

Then, Avni asked Pooja to visit my bedroom Pooja was super scared about it. She didn't know what to expect!! Finally, we got her to come to my room and she was super surprised. She said she was feeling dizzy and very disoriented by the change in there! I have complete makeover of my room complete with queen size bed on a bedframe, headboard and all bedroom furniture. I've never had the furniture in my room! IT was super fun to see Pooja's reaction!

What word am I using too much lately?

2012:
I have caught myself saying 'Exactly the same' a lot lately! Trying to get rid of it! lol

2013:
Can't think of any right now.

2018:
I do say "it always works out in the end" a lot, which, I don't think is a bad thing anyway. IT just means I have faith in the way things work out for me, regardless of the circumstances.

How am I expanding my mind?

2012:
I wish I was expanding my mind more... but even with the best intentions, it doesn't happen too often. Whenever I have some down time, I do try to read up some blogs on learning new recipe, new ways to organize, taking some tutorial videos, or just plain reading forums and learn more about people.

2013:
I take Creative Live classes when I have a chance. Other than that, I've subscribed to 'Get It Scrapped' site for the classes. I read those when I get a chance. I want to improve on my design (for scrapping) and storytelling skills.

2018:
This year, I have read more mind-developing books than I ever have. Also, taking many more CreativeLive courses and listening to podcasts. Putting lot of it to practice. One of them is to wake up early and get the routine going. I feel so much more positive energy because of that.

How much of my day did I spend completely alone?

2012:
I spend most of my days completely alone. At work, it's just me. Janis is usually on phone most of the day, so I hardly see her unless I really need to talk to her about something. When I get home, kids are in their own rooms, doing their homework. JK is working late tonight, so, it's just me in my room. Yes, me being people person, it does get lonely.

2013:
Today, I hardly had much time to myself. Woke up at 4:30 and went for workout. Then, to work (which was a bit lonely). After work, went to Christmas party back at workout place. There was tons of people at the party. I didn't get home till almost 11:30!

2018:
About half a day. Went to work out at 7 and then, straight from there, I went to Homegoods for shopping and visiting friends. After that, stopped by at Nordstrum Rack. By the time I got home, it was noon. In half an hour, I fell asleep and by the time I woke up, JK had left. So, I was pretty much on my own rest of the evening.   

What was weird about my day?

2012:
Nothing weird about MY day... Today was 12/12/12... last time in the century to have this kind of sequence. I finally got my VPN working... what was weird about it is... Helpdesk had me perform the same fix (reinstalling soft token, resynchronize) quite a few times and it didn't fix the problem and today CSO had me do the same thing and it finally worked!!!!

2013:
Nothing really.. now there was something, but it was more funny than weird considering the person. Pinal called to share the story with me. It's Nima's birthday today and she messed up her settings on FB, so no one could wish her Happy Birthday on her wall. so, Sandipkumar posted on his own wall (an image saying Happy birthday, with someone else's name erased). Ronak 'liked' the post, so he said thanks to Ronak for helping him out. Since his intention was to get more wishes for Nima, but no one has paid attention to his post. I think it was more because he just joined FB a week ago and doesn't have many friends on it.

2018:
Nothing weird, but this morning, Kalpu sent photo of her new tattoo. It is combination of Om, mountain range and a tree. Kind of a mix of Pooja and Avni's tattoos. Almost makes me think that Neil should have Om for his tattoo.... OR.. If I get a tattoo, it should be similar to Kalpu's expect add whatever Neil will have and that way I would have something to represent of all three of them.

UPDATE: I stopped by at Avni's home on my way to home and Avni showed me the sketch of Pooja's tattoo from back in March that she had shared with us. It is EXACT copy of Pooja's sketch, including the little moon on top! None os us had shared it with Kalpu!!! How creepy/weird is THAT!!!

Am I holding grudge?

2012:
Yes, some. I've been much better than before though. I've learned to let go and move on, but there are days when it all comes back. Must try harder to let go...

2013:
Yeap! Easier said than done.

2018:
It has its seasons. Sometimes, I let it all go and then, it all comes back. But I'm conscious about letting it go and keep working on it.

I realize tomorrow

2012:
is Jury Duty date! I hope I don't forget to call in. That's what happened to me last time. Forgot the date till after almost a week!

2013:
is Boy Scout Christmas party! Looking forward to it!

2018:
is Friday!!! ok... it's Tuesday, but Friday for me, since I have Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off!

What am I passionate about?

2012:
Humm.. lots.. but mainly about keeping family history. I love to take tons of photos for memory keeping. And now, I am trying to add the stories with the photos thru scrapbooking.

2013:
Being a family historian.

2018:
All kind of things! preserving the memories (I need to do better job at this though), making the memories, spending time with kids, hiking, being in the nature, health and fitness, cooking and trying out new recipes, list goes on!

What relationship did I nurture today?

2012:
Definitely mom! Neil was supposed to go for his biking trip at 7, so, I made him scrambled eggs for breakfast. Took Avni (and Pooja) to Girl Scouts Holiday Bazaar for henna painting. We made $41 for Avni's fund raising.

2013:
Spent most of the day making a photobook for Dharmesh/Kalpu of their Alaska vacation for Christmas gift. Avni was making her photo gift for her cousins, while Neil shopped for gifts for the boys. All in all, it was a great day working on gifts together.

2018:
Almost all of them. Had samosa chaat for lunch, so I asked Avni to come over for lunch. Had a great time having lunch with her and go over her wish lists. CrossFit Tribe had Christmas party, so I had asked JK to stop by if he could. Made batata Vada for potluck. JK came over at around 8:30. Had a great time hanging out with friends. JK enjoyed being there and despite him keep telling me that he'll leave soon, he ended up staying till 1!!! I took him upstairs to 're-room' (recovery room) and he loved the massage chair!

What do I wish my job was?

2012:
I like my job just the way it is. However, I would like it more if I was working with a team of people on same project. I love people interaction, brainstorming, exchanging ideas with each other and coming up with better solutions.

2013:
Any job would do as long as it had lots of problem solving, troubleshooting, people interaction and lots of activity.

2018:
Coaching people, helping out. Home Instead has helped me with my need to help out people. I had great three years working with senior people and helping them out. I Still try to volunteer for the job as I can, but lately, it's been more like once a month thing.

It would be great to have a job where I'm challenged, need to put my brain to work and trying to troubleshoot the problems, coming up with solutions. Maybe the right job is just waiting around the corner.

What makes me sweat?

2012:
Deadlines! Specially the self-produced deadlines to send out newsletter to my site members. So glad that I'm done with it all and moving on!

2013:
As far as the situations goes, I haven't been into one that would make me sweat lately. But since I've started working out, many of the workouts make me sweat really bad.. and it feels good when I do!

2018:
Nothing really. Exercise has been making me sweat lot more than it used to five years ago, but other than that, Nothing makes me sweat emotionally or mentally. There were day when at the end of the month I wouldn't have enough money for the rent and I would hate having to take money from Avni or Neil. If I didn't have their backup, that is one situation that would've made me sweat at every month.

How much money is in my wallet?

2012:
$23.. that's more than what I usually carry. Cash just makes me nervous. I rather use debit card so that I can keep track of where it went. With cash, I tend to forget what I used it for.

2013:
More than I should have! $52! Kohl's paid back about $40 for their mistake in checkout on Black Friday shopping and then, Greta paid me $40 for helping her with Etsy and Paypal. Obviously, we've used up most of Greta's money (about $20 at Cafe Taza, $10 for Avni's eyebrow and $10 for Avni's Secret Santa gift).

What memory do I want to keep from today?

2012:
Tomorrow is mom's cataract surgery, so I stopped by to see her before going home. I munched on bunch of snacks while mom and Kalpu worked on the dinner (for tonight and tomorrow night since tomorrow is Kalpu's late day).

2013:
Dropped off JK at the airport for NY at 4am. Avni had Girl Scout meeting at 7-8 and Neil had Patrol Leader meeting for Boy Scout at the same time - 7-8. I thought about asking Pooja to pick up Avni at 8, but she had to attend a meeting for her school project at 7:30. Neil's meeting was on other side of the town, about 10-15 minutes drive from where Avni's meeting was. So, I ended up dropping Neil off first, then dropped off Avni (about 15 minutes late into the meeting!). Then, I stopped by at Costco to fill up gas and headed to pick up Neil. I had asked Neil to be out about 5 minutes early so that Avni doesn't have to wait too long for us. But he couldn't leave early. He came out exactly at 8, so as soon as he got in the car, we took off for Avni. We got text from Avni at 8:02 asking, "How much longer?" lol We got there at 8:11. I was relaxed about Avni because I knew Melanie was going to be there and she would be ok waiting for me for few minutes, specially when I had a legit reason for running late. It all worked out just fine!

2018:
JK to Neil: You have your sisters, your mom and me ordering you around. Don't you feel anger sometimes?
Neil: Being angry is waste of time. It doesn't solve anything!

So much wisdom! May he continue with this kind of wisdom!

Who's the first person I saw today?

2012:
Of course, Neil, since I wake him up every morning.

2013: Trung among other crossfitters.

2018:
Crossfit guys at 7AM!

I really wish...

2012:
we could just be happy family. It's been like walking on eggshells most of the time and I'm getting tired of it.

2013:
I had solid career path by now. As of right now, I don't even know what to do next when my job contract is over. All of my old skills are outdated and what I've been doing at AT&T is mostly with legacy systems and of no use in outside market.

2018:
Well, I don't walk on eggshells anymore. I've learned to speak my mind and let others know when they hurt me or play their games. It has made tremendous difference. Kids and I are happy. JK and I are in good place for most part. I still got some work to do on that, but it's work in progress.

I've had 2-3 different 'career path' since 2013. Worked as cashier and in cash office for three years at HomeGoods. At the same time, also worked as caregiver for Home Instead (and still do as on call) and quality inspector for Tesla. I don't know what my future holds. I tried for over three years to find the right job, but as I had suspected about my job experience, nothing came my way.

I might sound like a broken record, but I really do wish I had my own home. Soon.. it HAS to happen!!!

Who is my best friend?

2012:
Tina(work), Darcy (Digi scrapping) and Lisa ( Oct 99 playgroup)! Sadly, none locally.. or anyone that I would call and talk on regular basis. But, I'm ok with that.... most of the time. Kalpu fills that void for me. We go to movies, shopping, eating out often enough for girl time.

2013:
Same.. Tina, Darcy, Lisa and have reconnected with Pinika (school), but I don't get to talk to her as often as I would want. Time zone of UK doesn't help either.

2018:
Same as above, however, I would like to add Crystal as my new friend. We've been talking, suggesting  about books for a while and when I ran into The book The Miracle Morning, I asked her to read it. She asked me to be her accountability partner and rest is history. Our friendship has grown lot deeper and more meaningful to enrich our lives.

I'm happy to say that I'm finally gaining a LOCAL friend that has become a great friend. I met Bhavana when I was visiting Pinal in Chicago and soon enough, her husband got the job at Livermore Lab. She contacted me when they were visiting the town to get the feel for it. Ever since then, we've been great friends and spend time together whenever she is here. Finally, in two weeks, she moving here for good and I'm looking forward to spend more time with her and have great times!

What did I get to do today?

2012:
I went to shopping with mom and Kalpu to the Meyers outlet (potsandpans.com) as our annual visit! IT was pouring rain and I almost decided against going, but glad that I took them. It was fun getting out with them. I also got to do some testing at work, it has been very busy at work lately - grateful that I still got to get out for shopping!

2013:
Relaxed, worked on photobook for a little while, went to Greta's home to help her with her Paypal and Etsy account. Then, went to Costco and New India Bazaar for grocery shopping. Took Avni and Neil to Cafe Taaza for quick snacks since Avni was starving! Came home with frozen pizza for dinner - since we lost over an hour at Greta's... and Greta paid me $40 for helping her.

2018:
Made the vegetable powder from dehydrated corn, carrots and peas. I've been using for a while and Neil also took some to use in eggs and such. Today, I started dehydrating lemon peels. I want to see how that turns out! I'm excited about it. If it's not bitter from pith, I'm thinking of making lemon pepper from it. Made palak paneer for dinner.

What worries me?

2012:
Uncertain future more than anything else. JK is planning to put an offer on the house today and there is no way we can afford it right now. He might be coming up with some creative ideas and I am worried about history being repeated. :(

2013:
Not much. I've been immune to all worries.

2018:
Nothing really. I have worked hard to get where I am right now. Although it may not be where I would like to be, it's better than the alternate. I'm constantly working on making things better. Worrying isn't going to get me anywhere. So, I choose to work towards the problems.

Today, I had too much...

2012:
work! This is a good thing though. I had been sitting idle for so long, it really was getting tiring! So glad to get some interesting work like good old days!

2013:
free time considering it's Thanksgiving day! We did our dinner on Sunday, so there was nothing to do today. I scrapped 11 pages for photobook for gift, watched movie with kids, then went shopping at 9:30 at Target and Kohls.

2018:
too much grocery shopping done! I went to Business Costco with JK and I was like a kid in the candy store! Bought way too much! But I had plan for everything. Mix vegetables for dehydrate, sweet potates, green bell peppers, tomatoes, carrots for soup, Cheese to make marinated cheese!

My body is...

2012:
TIRED!!! I've been working for 15 hours straight today!

But other than that, my body is just about perfect! I love it just the way it is!

2013:
in better shape that it ever was. I'm getting stronger everyday!

2018:
Better than ever! Stronger and healthier!

Do I feel appreciated?

2012:
Depends on the person, situation. At work, yes, I definitely feel appreciated. At home, not so much. It all depends. Kids do appreciate my efforts, time and energy I invest for them.

2013:
Eh.. besides kids.. not so much.

2018:
Eh.. don't care much about it. I do what I do because I feel its the right thing to do, not in search for appreciation.

What sound do I hate hearing?

2018:
Chalk on the black board!!

Name the last three things I used today.

2012:
That would be my iMac, iPhone and iPad. :)

2013:
Jump rope. kettle ball, pull-up bands.

2018:
Kettle ball, wall ball, slam ball!

How do I know?

2012:
Just my gut instinct.

2013:
I wish I knew! :)

2018:
Just because!

How did I play today?

2012:
Humm... cooked all day, went to walk for over an hour, ate tons and shopped in Walmart for Black Friday sale. Very well played! :)

2013:
Got home at 1:30AM from watching Catching Fire on opening night. Skipped going to CrossFit. Not really happy about skipping, but I didn't think 3 hours sleep would be a good idea. Went to mom's for lunch.

2018:
Went to watch the movie Fantastic Beast with kids and JK last night after work, then Neil and I went to mom's home because Anuj had requested monkey bread for breakfast. Woke up and made monkey bread and Kalpu made biscuit and gravy casserole for breakfast and started off our Thanksgiving feast for rest of the day with lot of yummy food, including Neil's homemade pasta! After dinner, we went to Target for Black Friday sale, just for fun and I actually found a good pair of boots just for $15!!!

What did I give up on today?

2012:
Nothing so far. Maybe I'll give up on some sleep and finish learning about Aperture on Lynda.com.

2013:
After starting CrossFit, I've been giving up on my precious sleep in the early morning to get to the class by 7am!

2018:
Dinner! We had the potluck at work today for Thanksgiving. So I had too much food. We were going to the movie right after I got home, so I didn't have time to eat dinner. Perfect excuse to get nachos there. But I told the kids that I' NOT going to eat nachos because tomorrow is another day where I'll be eating all kind of food!

What impressions did I make on others today?

2012:
I hardly talked to anyone today. Yesterday, I shared Diwali pics with Tina and she said she was jealous of me and my family... happy, I'm so happy for you kind of jealous. I shared my gratitude journal with Kalpana and she thought I was so creative. I shared the journal with Pratibha and she loved it. I told her that I will ship her the punjabi gravy and she was very grateful about it.

2013:
None. Been anti-social and haven't talked to anyone.

2018:
I wen to visit Baba for my weekly visit. Kimi is always grateful for my time and effort to make her life easy. It's actually a win-win for both of us. IT gets me out of home and gives me purpose to do something good for others.

What inspires me?

2012:
Hearing/reading other people's story inspires me.

2013:
Hanging out with those who are already where I want to be.

2018:
Reading/listening other people's stories about how they made it up from zero with hard work and persistence.

What is bothering me?

2012:
Uncertainty of the future. Not knowing if we'll ever move out of this place, for how long am I going to have to be the bread-winner, what Pooja's going to do for her school, my job security...

2013:
Nothing. Have learned to accept the things as they are.

2018:
Nothing really. There are things that I wish were better, but it is what it is.

What's my guilty pleasure?

2012:
TV - Desparate Housewives
Food - Nachos
Activities - Sleeping in

2013:
Humm... haven't watched Desparate Housewives for a long time! Maybe over a year! Can't remember the last time I had nachoes. Haven't slept in much ever since I started CrossFit. Got too used to waking up early.
As far as this year's guilty pleasure, I would say checking Facebook? I check updates way more than I should. Also, I love playing Sudoku.

2018:
Food: Ratlami Sev. Although I haven't had it in a while, I still grab a bag every chance I get!
TV: Don't watch anything other than Outlander.
Activity: I haven't been sleeping in anymore, but I definitely welcome the naps!
Games: Tsum Tsum. I play every chance I get from the time I wake up to I go to sleep.

Other than my clothes, what was with me majority of the day?

2012:
My purse along with my iPod, iPad and iPhone?

2013:
My iDevices.

2018:
My phone.

What is my greatest strength?

2012:
I would say problem solving.

2013:
Staying calm. Not react to the situation right away. I've learned to not jump the gun when I'm furious or upset over something. Just give it few hours and it's not all that bad or even matters by then.

2018:
Perseverance.

What do you want to tell yourself in one year?

2012:
Congratulations on finishing 2nd year of Question of the Day!!!! Every little entry counts towards the memory keeping!

2013:
Way to go on continuing with Project Life! Preserving memories of little precious moments is priceless!

2018:
Way to go on keeping your dream alive and work on it and not giving up! You really made that blog work and filled it with lots of useful content!

What do I have too much of?

2012:
Distractions. Any time, I start working on something, distractions comes in my way and I end up procrastinate on agenda at hand.

2013:
I have lots of inspiration to continue with my Project Life this year. I've almost completed working on this year and it's been the most I've ever scrapped! Besides 2013 book, I've got Yosemite book, Urbanathlon book, calendars, beginning of Priyank's wedding book. I better keep moving along while the motivation is there!

2018:
Long list of books that I want to read! Each day, the list keeps getting longer and longer! Same with the list of recipes I want to try out!

What is my favorite cuisine?

2012:
Of course, Indian.. but after that, Mexican!

2013:
Thai!

2018:
There are so many dishes in Indian cuisine that I Still haven't had a chance to try, I'm going to go with Indian cuisine. We just have so much variety!

What was the last lie I told?

2012:
Not really sure. Usually, I prefer not saying anything at all rather than having to lie. Only thing I can think of is... 3 days ago, JK told me that he got text from Ron that he didn't get rent check and what should he reply about that. I realized that I forgot to send check, so I immediately set it up online, but told JK that it's his problem.. answer whatever he feels like.

2013:
Can't think of any.

2018:
None that I can think of.

What shocked me?

2012:
The craziness of the new outlet mall! Ok, so it's the first designer outlet mall that opened up in N. CA since 2001.. but still! People are going crazy over it! These are high scale stores. And people complain about the recession? Traffic is backed up on both sides of highway for over 5 miles!

2013:
At work, I was working on a spreadsheet and had file saved on the server. I went to the server to open the  file to start working on it and it was GONE!!! My work of last 2-3 months was totally gone and now I have to start all over again! There was no backup to be found. :(

2018:
I can't think of anything really shocking. Actually, two months ago, when in-laws came back from their Europe trip and Ba showed off her brand new Rado watch and told me that she got it at a great deal and only paid something like $2300 for it, my mouth just hung open!!! I could NOT believe what I just heard!

What gadgets did I use today?

2012:
Cell phone, laptop, iMac.

2013:
Cell phone, camera, BlendTec, iMac.

2018:
Instant Pot. I just love that thing!

What are the achievements that I'm most proud of?

2012:
First of all.. I'm very proud of my kids! I'm also proud of the way I have endure the struggles and came out even stronger.

2013:
I've been going to CrossFit training for last 4 months. I'm very happy that I got out of my comfort zone and jumped into it. It's been an amazing experience so far!

2018:
I'm proud how kids and I came around in our most difficult times. Oh I just remember! My hike to Mt. Everest Base Camp! How can I forget that!!! That was the most awesome thing I did this year!

List 5 things I wish I had with me today.

2012:
I wish I still had my old home today. By now, it would've been paid for already.
I wish I had some local friends that I can hang out with, invite over for evenings.

Ok... sitting here for 10 minutes.. I can't think of anything else that I wish for.

2013:
Things.. humm... there is nothing that I can not live without.

2018:
It's Diwali today and I just wish I had all the kids at home with me today. Nothing else comes even close to the void I feel without them being with me.

If I could get rid of one of my habits, what would it be?

2012:
Getting distracted from the task on hand. I recognize that I have a major issue with it and I am consciously trying to focus more, but it's just hard most of the time. However, lately, I'm doing much better at avoiding the distractions and getting things done!

Today, I cleaned up over 10,000 orphan, duplicate items from iTune!!!!

2013:
Getting sidetracked! Still need to work on that one!

2018:
Other than being distracted, I would love to stop holding on to the grudges.

Do I love my job?

2012:
Well.. I do love my job.. as far as people I work with, environment at work, team work, flexibility... I couldn't have asked for a better place or person to work for. That is why I went back there again for second term of my contract.

However, lately, there is hardly any work and I'm in constant stress that they can cut my job at any given time. I have asked for more work repeatedly at the risk of making them aware that I've been sitting idle. There just isn't much work, no matter how you put it.

2013:
Things haven't changed about the lack of meaningful work. It's disheartening to say the least.

2018:
Depends. There are things that I can't stand. It all looks glorious from outside. Who wouldn't want to test drive Tesla as their job? But I tried it out for few hours and it just wasn't for me. I don't like the favoritism part that is so evident regardless of the management team. I've seen it on both teams that I've worked with. After switching the shift, I have been better. IT's not all too bad. I do miss some friends from other team, Still looking for something more meaning where I feel like my contribution has the value to the team.

What was the best conversation I had today?

2012:
At lunch time---
Neil - I can't wait to watch the movie after the lunch. I'm very excited to watch it!
JK - Which movie is it?
Neil - The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
JK - What kind of movie is it? Drama, action, adventure?
Neil - You won't like it
JK - What is it about?
Neil - It's about retirement
Me - You're been a teenager for less than 2 months ago and you've already had it that you're going for retirement?
Neil - Silence...

2013:
I had a sudden change of heart about white bread and bought Iron Kids bread (since Pooja wants to donate blood and is low on iron).
Ba: We already had 2 loaf of bread. Why did you buy another one?
Avni: It must've been on sale.
Neil: Maybe it's expiring, so she got it for free.
Pooja: What's wrong with mom? Why did she buy white bread?
JK: Woohoo! White bread! Let's toast it and eat it for breakfast!

2018:
Me: Avni, do you want to join me for lunch at Panda Express?
Avni: I thought you were working today.
Me: I am! But I have one hour lunch today!
Avni: Panda isn't worth driving to Fremont. Sorry Mom!
Me: But Mom is, right?
Avni: Shut up! I saw you yesterday and I'm coming over today. You'll be fine!
Me: Did you just tell me to shut up?
Avni: Yea

What occupied my mind today?

2012:
Not something I really want to remember.. most of the time it was about the unfair treatment towards me. However, majority part of the day was also spent cooking with mom and that was the best part!

2013:
About the future... when we'll be able to move out from our cramped up home and in a better place.

2018:
CrossFit! Did 12 Girls (workouts) in 12 Hours! That was epic! Working out with 50+ athletes, hang out, eat, joke around, groan and moan together.. Entire day was so much fun! Even Avni came by and hung out for a while!

Share some good advise.

2012:
If it's too good to be true, it is.
Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher.

2013:
How to react in any given situation is up to you. You can not give power to others to ruin your day.
If you hold the anger towards someone, it's only you that will be hurting (by holding hot coals of anger in your hand).

2018:
Do not let someone else's opinion affect you what/how you feel about yourself. Only your opinion counts in that matter!

Which decision am I glad I made?

2012:
On a deeper level, I'm not sure if bringing Pooja home and have her skip the semester is the good one or not, but then, there was not much of the choice. Only time will tell if this is right or wrong. On superficial level, I just bought my first iPhone(5) today and so happy with it so far! I love it already!

2013:
It turns out, bringing Pooja home was the best decision! There is huge turnaround in her attitude (not that it was bad to begin with), she has bonded with Avni and Neil so much more, she's back on track with her school, she's been so much happier than ever before.

Despite our current financial condition, I've signed up Avni for Spain trip from school and Neil for Philmont for Boy Scouts. I know they'll have great time. I can squeeze up the budget and make it happen. This kind of opportunities doesn't come often.

2018:
Wow! Exactly, 6 years later, I've bought iPhone XS! I went back and forth if I should upgrade the phone or not. My phone is the most outdated out of all of us, but I was happy with it. But I've wanted to take advantage of new/better camera. This one has dual camera and wide angle lens, perfect for my outdoor photos! Avni tried it out and now she wants it more than ever! lol

There have been multiple occasions where I've chose life over work and have been glad I did every single time. It takes a lot out of me to turn down overtime to do something fun with kids or friends and I've been choosing it more and more. No regrets there!

What's the happiest headlines in the news today?

2012:
With elections just around the corner and Sandy storm hitting the East coast, there isn't much of the happy news around. I had to really dig for it. Today was SF Giant's World Series Championship victory parade!

2013:
Two days ago, I witnessed most amazing thing! Human of New York featured a story of a man that had adopted a girl and hoping to adopt a boy. He mentioned that he needed help with raising funds to adopt the boy. Within one hour of posting the story, 100% of the money ($26K) was raised and it didn't stop there. Within 36 hour, at closing the donation page, they had collected $86K! Remaining money is to go toward the education fund for the kids. That's the most heartwarming story I've heard in a long time!

What is standing in my way?

2012:
My own laziness and short attention span. However, I've started to make reminders and To-do lists and that have helped me a lot for getting things done in timely manner.

2013:
Lack of motivation. No matter how much I talk myself up for things, I end up falling hard, facing the reality. It's hard to stay motivated after that.

2018:
Me? I'm getting better though. Have been getting up early and going to workout every time I have a day off. One step at a time. I'm making sure to have better quality of life. Doing things for me that brings me joy.

Am I settling for something?

2012:
Not really, but I might as well settle for simple, uneventful life.

2013:
I'm settling for spending most of my free time with kids and cherish every moment with them. The time spent with them is very precious to me.

2018:
I'm settling for at least a little bit of control over my life. It's been much better than ever before. I take time to hang out with kids, go hiking on my off days, or actually take a day off or not volunteer to work to hike or to attend special events. It's about time that I do things that gives me joy rather than always focus on working constantly.

What is the last movie I saw?

2012:
The last one I saw in the theater was The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel with Pinal and Kalpu. Oh.. about 2-3 weeks ago, I did watch Holes on YouTube after I finished reading the book.

2013:
In theater, I think it was new Wizard of Oz.. a fundraiser for Rotary club. Haven't watched any at home lately.

2018:
Last one I watched in theater was Crazy, Rich Asians. About Chinese families. Similar to Bollywood stories. It was a fun movie!

How many emails did I have today?

2012:
About 100 - it is Saturday, so a bit on low side.

2013:
About 150.

2018:
No idea! None of the emails are important anyway. Most of them are spam, newsletters or notifications.

What opportunity am I waiting for?

2012:
I'm just waiting for a chance to rebuild my life. I don't know if it will ever happen, but it doesn't hurt to dream.

2013:
Tiny bit of free space? Most of the time I feel suffocated and can't wait till I have little level of control over our household life.

2018:
I Really honestly don't know. I know this much that at this current rate, I can survive, but won't be able to save up for retirement or buying my own home. Something HAS to change. I'm open to any idea on how to make it happen. As it is, I'm now working for tesla, the auto industry that I had never thought would happen. And that has definitely brought some kind of stability in my life. I don't So, you'd never know. IF life throws me something else, I'll be glad to jump at it and give it a try!

Describe my last life-changing moment

2012:
This couldn't be more timely than this! It just happened today as we learned that Pooja haven't been enrolled in her classes, had her petition to enroll been rejected and have wasted not only this semester, but last semester too(because she failed it). It really is a slap on my face for more parenting. I just wish there was a do-over for this event, but there isn't. Life must go on!

2013: unfortunately.. or fortunately, nothing since last year. But Back in 2006.. when we lost our home with 10 minutes of notice. That was definitely life-changing.

2018:
I guess when we lost our home AGAIN? How is this even possible! Got to learn true colors of everyone. Big growing moments for kids and how they rallied around me to get ourselves back on feet.

If I made laws, what one would I make today?

2012:
Under current circumstances, if a child doesn't answer parents' calls or return the calls, they should be required to serve certain amount of community service hours to teach them the responsibilities.

2013:
Every single school should have uniforms.

What impact do I hope to have on the world?

2012:
I'm not sure if I would reach out to world, but to those around me... I know for sure that I would influence them about my healthy eating habits, my food preservation craziness, cooking from scratch fascination and my discoveries about making homemade mixes to make life easier and simpler.

2013:
When I have means to excess money, I am hoping to help the needy people and encourage young talent.

2018:
Staying positive and spread the joy.

My favorite sound is

2012:
Raindrops in quiet night! There is something magical in that!

2013:
Waterfalls at Yosemite!

2018:
Pooja answering her phone! Or Avni answering her phone! Or Neil answering his phone! Miss them and love to talk to them every chance I get!

What do I wish for more of in the world?

2012:
Laughter! Life has become so stressful these days for most people, it almost seems like people have forgotten to have a good hearty laugh. I wish there was more of it to go around.

2013:
Compassion.

2018:
Last two days I worked with my old team and boy, did I have some good hearty laughs!!! It was great!!! I was literally laughing out loud working with Miranda, George (he was a bit annoying, but still fun to work with) and Ron. I had so much fun and we laughed so much!

On lighter side, Wish there were more Mega Million lottery going on. The lottery has gone up to $1.6 Billion as of this morning, a historic all time high and people are non-stop talking about what would they do with the money if they won. It's a day dreaming, but st least boosts up the mood for everyone temporarily. Eddie (Repair Tech supervisor) started the pool of $20 per person and have managed to have 98 people contributing to it. Which means, he's bought 980 tickets. If they win, each person would get about $400K per year for 30 years. Seems like he's opting for one time cashout, which will be lower than 30 yrs annuity, but better in the long run if you invest the money wisely. There are few guys here that are really into it and started looking for airfare to places they want to go. I kind of burst their bubble when I pointed out that there might be multiple winners and their winnings might be divided. :)

Who in my life is crazy talented? What is their talent?

2012:
In light of house searching these days,, I can think of Greta as one of the crazy talented person! She is so good at interior decorating. She loves to decorate her home and comes up with unique ideas. She would redecorate her girls' rooms almost every 6 months and they would look like photos from the magazines! She helped me decorate Pooja's room and it turned out so good! I hope to have her help me in my new home!

2013:
Tina is one.. she always comes up with all kind of projects/decorations to make parties and dinners come alive!
Another one is Neeta. She's henna artist. She's the most amazing talented henna artists I've met. She is not only renowned bridal henna artist, but she also decorates cakes, candles, gift boxes, drums among many other things to create unique gift items.

2018:
Bren Boone. She used to be a scrapbook designer. She weaves, dyes, spins, and creates her own patterns for the sweaters. The colors she comes up for the yarn are just super gorgeous! She even carves her own beautiful crochet hooks from the wood. Makes scented soap. It is so fun and inspiring to watch her do all creative things that I can not even imagine doing!She recently bought a sock knitter machine, which is so cool to watch!

In one year from today, what word do I hope best describes my life.

2012:
H.A.P.P.P.Y!!!!!

2013:
Content.

2018:
Well -balanced. In every aspect of life.

How much time did I spend outside today?

2012:
Not much unless you count getting in and out of the car. Picked up Neil from school, went to get side mirror fixed for my car, came home, picked up Avni from school, dropped off Neil to Patrol meeting.. day was over by then!

2013:
Besides home and work... well, first thing in the morning, I went to CrossFit training at 7AM. Went to mom's for lunch. After work, stopped by at Sikandar store for some quick grocery shopping.

2018:
Not much other than walking from my car to the building... about 10 minutes walk (rather than taking shuttle). Worked 12 hours. If I had worked in Model 3 today, I would've been outside all day.

How did I improve myself today?

2012:
It was busy day at work, so not much time for self-improvement. But, I'm trying not to sweat the small stuff. It's Pooja's birthday today and she haven't been answering my phone calls. I must've tried 10 times. I'm not losing my temper over it. Ten years from now, this wouldn't matter much, so why should I get upset over it today...

2013:
Oh.. I tried to improve in physical fitness today and I'm sore! I did multiple rounds of Clean & Jerk (finished with 55#), ran 800 meter for time (5:02 minutes), pull-up hang for 1:19 minutes, 400 meter run in 2:10 and 93 squats in 4 minutes!

2018:
Luckily, I called Pooja at 6:30AM and she answered the phone right away! IT was good to hear her voice. She's going to Boston for 4 days, touring the city all on her own! Can that be an improvement on my part for raising independent daughter who lives thousands miles away and enjoys touring on her own?

Anyway...I did go for workout this morning. The only day of the week I can go. But rather than sleeping in on my only day off of the week, I've chosen to go for the workout. Every little bit helps!

Describe the last time I was embarrassed

2012:
Too tired to think right now.. can't think of any right now.

2013:
Maybe I've just blocked off the memories. :)

2018:
About a week or two ago, I was checking the exterior of the car and Derick had changed the Car model badge to P75D from 75D. We don't even have that model.So, I had no excuse not to catch that mistake! I can't believe I missed it! Normally, I catch the things no one else is even paying attention to, like wrong car manual (it was for model x rather than model S), wrong fascia (with australian licence plate and clear fog lights rather than amber lights) on North America car, wrong side view mirror ( no warning writing on NA car). I even told Derick that why would he do this me just few hours after I caught the wrong mirror? But I know that's not an excuse for missing something so obvious!

What time did I wake up this morning?

2012:
I first woke up at 5:20, but got out of bed at 6:10.

2013:
5 AM to get to CrossFit.

2018:
4AM to go to work. My normal time to wake up unless I'm not working. In that case, 5:45AM to go workout.

Describe the last piece of furniture I purchased

2012:
I'ts been almost 13 yrs that we've bought any furniture. Most furniture was brought from Chicago. We did buy dining table(casual) from here as soon as we moved here because we sold the one in Chicago(Glass and metal... not a good idea to transport here).

2013:
Nothing yet.

2018:
A whole lot! Bought the queen size mattress and the bed frame for it. Then, at the spur of moment, bought the bedroom set without looking at the furniture. I was just browsing on Facebook at dinnertime and saw someone selling black bedroom furniture (headboard, dresser, end table, corner table and a lamp - all for $200). I claimed it right away and had it delivered the next day!Best decision ever!

What is my current bank balance?

2012:
Counting my checkings and savings... ~$12,000! :)

2013:
$7,354.37

2018:
About $8000! Finally, climbing back up after long road of recovery!

If others described how I acted today, it would be...

2012:
Depends on who you ask. Mostly... cool and collected.

Had major stress induced day today with  mom and dad being out of touch due to power outage. But it all worked out ok. Called PG&E to find the status and report the issue. Later in the evening, contacted AT&T to get the phones working.

Chauffeured around Neil and Avni to/from school, birthday party, football game, corn maze, Avni's friend's home to drop her off....

2013:
Preoccupied, multi-tasking.

Deepubhai and Dipti left for LA. It was hard for us to let go of them, but I knew that I couldn't stop them for my selfish reasons of having a friend around. I didn't want them to have regrets later of not giving it a try. In afternoon, I cooked idli manchoorian for potluck to take for AWA BBQ at Mr. Guido's home. As soon as we got home, it was time to get ready for garba. We didn't get home till 1AM!

2018:
Quiet. I'm working at new spot (pre-water) today with people I've never worked before. Mostly, keeping to myself other than occasional hello, how are you doing. It's going to be a long day.

What is my mission?

2012:
My mission is to build secure future for my kids. Create the most inviting, cozy, warm home for them to come home to and invite their friends over without hesitating.

2013:
Still the same!  I want my home to be inviting for everyone. Anyone that visits or stays with us should feel comfortable and at home.

2018:
Just about the same! After moving to apartment 3.5 yrs ago, kids have been inviting their friends more often. Derick comes over quite often and invites himself for dinner. Kassandra (mine and Avni's friend) has made it her second home.

What was the last gift I gave?

2012:
I got Gelish nail kit for Avni and Kalpu. I also got boots for Avni(both her early birthday present). Oh, and 2 days ago, I bought bike for Neil for his birthday but most of the money for bike came from mom and Dharmesh.

2013:
This year, I haven't been that good about gift giving. I just bought a jacket for Pooja's birthday, but it was more of Avni's idea. I just paid for it.

2018:
Airpods to Neil for his birthday.

What was the mistake?

2012:
Still trying to figure it out.

2013:
Having the hopes high about the Sannita house. Announcing it to everyone before there was funding for it. Putting so much energy into planning for that particular house. Hopefully, planning won't go 100% wasted and will come in handy eventually at least at some level.

2018:
When I got laid off (contract expired early), I took Janis' word that She'll take me back in 6 months, just like last time. I didn't search for the job aggressively during those six months. When six months were over, she was ready to take me on, however they had the reorganization and put the freeze on any kind of hiring. She kept trying for few more months, but finally, it was apparent that I'm not going to get the job back. By then, too much time had passed since I left the job and it became hard to explain my lack of employment. There were some other excuses the potential came up with that I was overqualified or that I would get too bored and leave the job if I took up entry level jobs. All of this compounded in me getting discourage in finding the right job. I should've kept on going and keep searching but at the end, I pretty much gave up and took up the job at Home Instead and HomeGoods. At least they helped me get back up on my feet and get going. Gave me new hope that regardless of my circumstances, I will make it and keep on going.

Four years later, I still haven't gotten back to it. Just yesterday, got a call from a recruiter and she asked me what have I don't since 2014 and when I told her that it's been non-technical jobs, she quickly hung up on me. But regardless of these failures, I will rise and get back on track. I've taken my step by starting to work for Tesla.

What's the next book I'm going to read?

2012:
Not sure. I just started reading the classic - Holes. I've seen the movie so many times, it was time to read the book. I thought I had read it before when Pooja had the book, but it doesn't seem like it.

Next in the list are some non-fiction books, most of them are about decluttering, home decor, organizing, Feng-sui... all that kind of stuff.

2013:
Just finished A Breath of Snow and Ashes of Outlander series. Echo in the Bones is the next in series, but I've started listening them all from beginning before going to Echo.

2018:
Right now, I'm reading How To Win Friends & Influence People in the Digital Age by Dale Carnegie. Its an updated book to reflect the recent times. I just finished the original one last week.

Next in line are Smart Women Finish Rich by David Bach, The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Joseph Murphy, Calyspso by David Sedans and of course, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. All books came to my library loan at the same time. I've got some serious listening to do in next few days!!

What was the last stupid thing I did?

2012:
Trying to outdone Neil and stomp on the big pop up bubbles. His foot was still in the air, ready to pop the bubble and I got in-between to pop the bubble, only to have Neil stomp on my foot!!!! OUCH!!! 4 days later, it's still hurting me!

2013:
Writing $10,000 check for escrow money when money to buy the house wasn't secured yet. Needless to say that I lost that money.

How much is a gallon of gas?

2012:
anywhere from $4.25-$4.50..

2013:
Around $3.75-$3.89

2018:
Around $3.35

Did I do more talking or listening?

2012:
I think, both! More listening than talking though. Went to mom's for lunch where I didn't talk much, just enjoyed my time there. Helped Arnav installing Adobe Shockwave player on laptop for his computer. Evening was spent at LVCP's new school for ground breaking with kids and JK. When JK is around, you don't get much chance to talk. It's better to just be quiet and listen.

2013:
Definitely, more listening. Deepubhai has been staying with us for about a month now, who is also a big time talker. You don't get to get your word in when JK and Deepubhai are around!

2018:
Most probably talking. But I've been working on intentionally become better listener by asking question to others and listening to their stories and concerns.

How am I?

2012:
Better than ever! I finally got the product gallery installed on the site all on my own! Major breakthrough considering I had been literally begging Anne to install it for last 2 weeks!

2013:
On a roller coaster... sometimes, I feel down and depressed about how long it's taking to make a breakthrough with JK's company and then, I make myself truly believing that it's happening soon and I start looking forward to a better future.

2018:
I'm doing ok on most part. Working like crazy to recover from not having any emergency fund money and living paycheck to paycheck. I've finally got some breathing room to not have to worry about the rent money at the end of the month.

Emotionally, a bit lonely after Avni moved out. No one at home to talk to. Jk is gone most of the evenings and doesn't come home till late nights (from Ubering) and even if he's home, there isn't much communication going on,unless I want to hear about who he met and what others are doing. Nothing about OUR life. That's the subject he tries best to avoid.

I've been much stronger than ever before. There are things I'm letting go/slide, but because I chose to be a better person and taking high road. I am doing much better at keeping my anger in check and keep the discussion at calm manner no matter how furious I get at certain things.

Describe my day in one word

2012:
Productive!

2013:
Uplifting!

2018:
Upbeat!

Who did I hug today?

2012:
Ok.. as strange as it may sound... I was hugged by JK by force in the kitchen.. sneakily. I'm not much of a hug person.

2013:
Umm.. that was JK in the morning before I was leaving for the workout.

2018:
Probably no one.

Who was the last person I spent quality time with?

2012:
Glad to say I've touched many people in last few days!

Last Monday, spent time with Kalpu doing her nails (gel nails!). On Saturday, it was just me and ba at home, so I spent time with her in kitchen dehydrating some tomatoes, peppers, okra, peas and corn, while she was busy frying kachoris in the afternoon. Yesterday (Sunday) afternoon, I spent time with Neil and Avni.. just good quality time doing our own things. Today, I talked to foi/fua in the morning, which I haven't done since coming back from NY last month. In afternoon, I talked to Kerry about her parents and her difficult time with them in their last days. After school/work, went to see Pooja to give her some home cooked food and spent some time with her. At boy scout meeting, I stole some minutes to talk to Jody just about life that had nothing to do with boy scouts. That's something I hardly ever get to do. So, that was precious!

Even spent some time with JK in all of this!

2013:
Went to  mom's for lunch and had great time catching up with mom, Kalpu and dad (who was gone to Costco, but came home before I left). Also, called Masi in India to talk to her since I haven't called her after mom came back from India.

2018:
Avni! Went to Half Dome hike with her and spent 24 hours with her!Ok, maybe a bit less than that. But she claimed that she's been with me for entire 24 hours. Technically... except the part where she was ahead of me hiking or that she was sleeping in the car. Lol But we had a great day together. I need to do more of those long hikes.

Was I bored today?

2012:
Not at all!!!! Spent all afternoon with Avni and Neil. Little bit of studying, little bit of goofing off, little bit of cleaning up, playing with nail polish, playing music. It really was a fun afternoon. Made dalbati and gatta biryani for dinner. Attended Sea Base meeting at Benedicts after dinner.

2013:
Work can be boring at times, but oh well! Went to Boy Scouts meeting in the evening and by the time I got home, day was over! Watched 30 minute video of Sea Base trip at the meeting! That was fun to see all the video clips and photos with rest of the troop.

2018:
Pretty much! I woke up at noon (recovering from 24 hours adventure of Half Dome hike. Stayed in bed for rest of the day, just browsing on Facebook for most part of it.

Have I broken the law? How so?

2012:
Nothing much other than small traffic tickets. I just paid $160 for one yesterday. As I was driving, Avni called to ask if I'm coming to pick her up at school. I hardly ever talk on phone while driving without headsets. I knew this was a very quick call, just to tell her that yes, I'm on my way. Cop happened to be driving right next to me and caught me!

2013:
Not since last year. Haven't got any other ticket. Been a good driver. As kids say about me.. I'm not a rule breaker, let alone a law breaker!

2018:
Not that I know of!

I never

2012:
had a true girlfriend that I can hang out with, share my joys and sorrows, share the hobbies, passion about things. I've always had that void in my life. I'm still hopeful that I'll find one someday. Just when I actually have time to do fun things, when kids are gone from home and I have empty nest.

However, I really am grateful that I can hang out with Kalpu as limited as it can be, we share same point of view on many things, she's the friend I've never had. But her being my sister-in-law, there is that little barrier where she would need a break from me to spend time with her friends! lol I also have two most awesome online/internet friends, Darcy and Lisa that I can share just about anything. I don't know what I would've done without them. I really wish they both were my local friends.

2013:
want to lose hope about our brighter future. I can almost feel it, smell it.. it's oh, so close, but not close enough!  I know it's just around the corner and I can't wait for it!

Was I a good listener today?

2012:
I believe so! Avni came to me and talked for a while. Neil talked about his day in a school. Oh.. even got to talk to Pooja today after almost 2 weeks. And rather than asking her why she haven't been calling, not replying my calls, I listened to what SHE had to say and let her tell her stories about school and loft. Even listened to what JK had to say about his company (even paused my audio on iPad to pay attention to him!) :)

2013:
I'm usually a good listener. When I go for a walk with Kerry, It's usually her venting about her boss and work, while I just listen to her getting it all out. Then, there is JK who calls and starts talking until he hangs up without realizing that he didn't give me a chance to talk. :) Of course, I love to listen to kids' stories and go in their rooms to hear all about it!

What made today worthwhile?

2012:
I started making lists in Gmail Task to make my work more organized. I wish to make it a daily habit to make the list and accomplish everything according to my reasonable deadlines.

2013:
Humm.. went to CrossFit in the morning, which always makes me feel good. Got lot of work done at work. At home, finished transferring last audiobook on iTune for my iPod. Now, I only have 2nd half of one book to copy and I'm done with that project!!!

2018:
It was Coach Brian's birthday today. He was doing to do his birthday workout at 6:30pm class and then, birthday burpees and cake. So, I decided to stop by there after work for the burpees and wish him happy birthday. When I got there, workout didn't start yet. I had expected it to be half way done by the time I get there (the reason I stopped going to 6:30 class). When everyone started their workout, I was standing on the side, supporting everyone and watching. Coach Brian asked me to join for the workout. I didn't bring my workout clothes. So, at first, I resisted, but then, after 2-3 minutes, I joined in. I skipped the burpees, but did the sumo deadlift, front squats, overhead squats, push press, etc with 15LB dumbbell. It was better than not doing anything and then, later, I joined in for burpees too! It felt good to get at least little bit of workout in. Coach B was happy to see me. I got to see all the athletes I normally don't get to see. So, it was totally worth going up there for an hour.

Was I in control of my day?

2012:
Most of the day I was. I tested all courses and launched them on prod. Kept up with emails. Sent out emails to designers for Designer Sponsorship. Got confirmation from all. Asked Anne to upgrade the forums. She FINALLY started to work on it and now, the form won't accept the customer number. :( Now, forums are broke until I can figure out the problem. Hopefully I'll hear from vB people by the time I wake up and can fix the problem.

2013:
I think so. Work was as usual. In the evening, LVCP had Back to School night for the parents from 6-8. Avni had Girl Scouts from 7-9.  It was going to be a bit complicated on how to manage this since Pooja had school in the evening. But Deepubhai came to rescue and while JK (for Avni's classes) and I (for Neil's classes) went to school, Deepubhai took Avni to the Girl Scouts.

2018:
Yeap! Woke up early, took shower and went for work out. I would've preferred to shower after workout, but usually, Tuesdays are my hectic days.I have just enough time to get out of home at 10. Came home from workout and made beet pulao and idli. wrote a check for rent and dropped it off at office. Actually remembering to do so was the biggest thing! Got everything done just in time. Even stopped for the gas and still made it in oakland by 11:07. Not bad at all! As I was getting ready to go to Avni's home, as usual, I ended up talking with mom and Kalpu for another half an hour, but still made it at her home by 5:45 with half an hour left before she needed to leave for school. The day went by calm and smooth just as it should be.

What do I wish I could have skipped today?

2012:
I could've skipped reading forums that are unproductive and read something useful and done something productive. I still need to set up the site, clean up some forums, set up Contact Us page... lots to do. shouldn't have wasted time in just browsing around.

2013:
Nothing really. It was a wonderful day. Started the day with a workout. Performed a handstand in the air without the support of the wall!  Got some work done, could've been more productive though. Went for a walk with Kerri. Went home at 5:45.. decided to leave on time rather than hanging out at work for no reason or to wait on Kerri or Janis to leave. Showed off my newly gained skill of free handstand to Ba and Dipti. Recorded rest of the audiobook CDs (Outlander series) on iTune and spent some time with kids after dinner.

2018:
Not much happened today. Worked 12 hours, got home, had dinner, played game for an hour and spent some time on Facebook. I guess I could've skipped playing games, but having worked in super hot temps outside, I just feel so tired and needed to wind down a bit. But I'm back to getting things done and checking off my daily list. So far so good!

I believe

2012:
My future is about to change. My spirits have lifted up considerably high. Looking forward to the bright future!

2013:
I need more hours in a day. There are so many things I want to do, books I want to read, places to go, memories to scrap... Not enough time in a day. But at least I'm living the life at its full potential with the limited sources I have.

2018:
I'm off to a good start. Reading uplifting books, spending time with like-minded people, either on FB or in real life. Creating some good habits of meditation, journaling, reading, exercising, visualizing and saying affirmations.

If I could change today, would I?

2012:
Nope! It was a great day. Avni and I went shopping. She came home with plenty of stuff for herself. I loved spoiling her. It's not often that I do that, so it was fun for both of us.

In the evening, JK and I went out for dinner, Avni was gone to her friend's home for birthday party. Neil is gone to Boy Scout camping.

Now, if I could've just talked to Pooja on phone, it would've been a perfect day, but I guess I can't have it all?

2013:
It was a perfect day! We went hiking with Deepubhai and Dipti. Mr. Guido was with us too. We were supposed to go to Gaylord Lake, but due to surprise snow fall (4"), Tioga Road closed and we had to change the plans. Mr. Guido decided to go for Valley floor hike (8 miles), which turned out to be perfect as first hike for Dipti and Deepubhai. We finished the hike by 1 already and had plenty of time left. So, kids wanted to go rock climbing at Lower Falls. JK drove home with Mr. Guido and rest of us stayed behind for our 'fun trip'. We all had a great time on the rocks. We stopped by at Taco Bell for kids and got home by 7. Shared the pics and videos with family and had belly laughter watching it all!

2018:
I was scheduled to work today, so got home at 7. Neil and Avni were supposed to come home tonight. But after waiting till 9, I gave up and called Neil not to come and instead come over next weekend, since it my weekend off, so I get to spend more time with him anyway. I think he was hoping to see SAnam today, who is visiting CA with Raahi and then meet up with Avni, hang out more with Sanam and then, come home. It seems like he didn't connect with Sanam for whatever reasons. After all, Sanam was supposed to be in Napa with her friends. I wish Neil was able to meet up with Sanam as he was really counting on spending time with her and maybe showing around the city.

The last gift I've received was

2012:
The gold chain from Yaminiben at Priyank's wedding. And I suppose silver plated set of ice cream bowls, also from Priyank's wedding.

2013:
The handmade plaque made by kids for my birthday - "Tough Times Don't Last, Tough People Do."

2018:
Got really great gifts for my 50th birthday. First and foremost, a personal letter from MJ that Dharmesh made it happen, along with a frame with Karamsad Madir's photos.Canvas of my favorite photo of me and the kids. And of course, $100 from Pinal. Then again, $250 from Dharmesh for Rakshabandhan.

What pressure did I feel today?

2012:

It was my first time launching a course as a designer today. I had no training, no job aids, no previous experience. I was scared to hit the send button! BUT, it all worked out after realizing few goof ups! Took me a while to understand the 'system', but finally I got it!

2013:
No real pressure lately.

2018:
Nothing really. Sanam was coming over to visit and I had a day off, so it worked out perfect. I went to Oakland as usual, took a little nap before driving to Avni's home to pick her up, then picked up Anuj from his school and had great time at mom's home. Arnav had his Eagle board of review and became Eagle today. It was kind of bittersweet for me because Neil wasn't able to finish his Eagle because the school closed down. But I'm happy and proud of Arnav. It really made me happy when he had asked me to write his letter of recommendation.

OMG!

2012:
I think I'm getting better and better henna painting! Last time I was invited for henna birthday party and I was asked to paint death eater's mark (Harry Potter) on all the girls' hands. Today, I was invited at Melanie's home for Cheyenne's water polo team, and they all asked me to paint water polo ball on their hand! That is totally out of my comfort zone! But I did great!

2013:
Just (9/18/13)found out that in Kalpu's neighborhood (Ashbourne street, right behind them), sheriff, locksmith and a property manager had come to evict the house owner for foreclosure. When the knocked the door repeatedly, he fired 5 gun shots from his door and hit the property manager in his leg. Now, he's being tried for 5 attempted murder case.

2018:
Avni had her wisdom tooth surgery (all 4 teeth taken out) and I was looking forward to taking her goofy video after the surgery, but she acted normal as ever! Spent $2400 (she paid) out of pocket for the surgery and didn't even get the video to show for it! I just can't believe it!

How old do I feel?

2012:
I don't know.. maybe 30? I think I still have same energy level as I had when I was 30.. or even more! I didn't run marathons or hiked while I was in 30s!

2013:
Humm.. trick question! I don't feel old, but after joining CrossFit and working with all the youngsters who have so much more energy than me, I keep being reminded that I'm much older than them. But at the same time, anyone that finds out that I have 3 grown up kids are always surprised and shocked!  In any case, after joining CrossFit, I have even more energy/stamina level than I did last year!

2018:
Definitely not 50, that's for sure! Just hiked to Everest Base Camp this year. That was huge for me to overcome my fear of hiking in cold. I did great! I'm looking forward to many more adventures. Age is only the number.

What went perfectly about my day?

2012:
Nothing went wrong today. I approached Anne to take care of malware and it's been cleaned out after a week!!! Made a payment to her for her services on upgrading the site.

2013:
It was non-eventful day. Went to workout at 7, ended up not having to volunteer for Bingo, after work went to Sikandar for buy some groceries, stopped by at mom's and picked up Neil from Library on the way home.

2018:
So far, at work. it's been going good. Just the right pace of work. Nothing stressful. Working on the line.Slow pace in the morning and again, slow pace at the end of the day. First half the day, worked on Gap and Flush and rest of the day, Seats and functions. Pretty good day!

Who threw the last party I Went to?

2012:
Living an isolated life, I don't get invited to any parties. Last 'party' was of/on my own birthday at Kalpu's home. Other than that, I guess I can consider Priyank's wedding that we all attended last month.

2013:
Still living exile life. No parties to go to. We just have birthday dinners between 2 families, no parties.

2018:
Judy Rangle, one of my crossfire coach, had her housewarming party. I was working that day till 6 (12 hours shift), but I wouldn't miss any crossfit event/gathering if I could. So, I drove all the way to Tracy after work and stayed till past 10 even though I needed to wake up at 4. I just love hanging out with everyone from crossfit. Ok, to be honest, that's the only social circle I have these days. But I do enjoy the company, not just because I have no one else to spend time with.

What's the last thing I said to another person?

2012:
Neil called about an hour ago, from mom's home. He asked if he can stay over for dinner, as DA had gone to Safeway to get a birthday cake for Neil (it's Neil's birthday tomorrow). So, I told him that it's ok to stay there for a dinner and HIS birthday cake. Who am I to say no to that? ;)

2013:
Went to check in on girls before going to sleep. Avni was already asleep. Talked to Pooja for a bit. Told her that I'll be taking Avni and Neil to school and she can pick them up.

2018:
Humm... spent the day at Yosemite, hiking with Lynette and Tim Guido and another family. Last thing I Remember talking about before getting in the bus from curry village to our parking spot was about my Everest trip. They wanted to know all about it and I was happy tell them all! :) We walked 14 miles on valley floor hike and then, to the curry village.

Was I stressed today? Why?

2012:
I should.. about the malware on my sites. But, no... not stressed. I know I need to take care of it. No one else is going to do it. But stressing about it isn't going to help either.

Same in other areas. Stressing doesn't do any good. Just keep on swimming...

2013:
Update on sites: I wasn't able to remove malware. Soon after I did with help of Anne, sites got attacked again. At that point, I decided to shut down the sites. No regrets on that part.

Today, I woke up under the sky, had gone to sleep under the stars. Started hiking Mt. St. Helena trail at 9AM. Had great time hiking, I could feel the difference in my energy after 2 months of crossfit training. It was amazing!

Neil and I were hiking while Pooja was working at library, Ba was making papdi at mom's home, JK was in LA for his meeting and Avni was gone for her friend Megan's birthday party at Santa Cruz boardwalk. JK was supposed to come home around 10. I wasn't concerned about their dinner (I could've either make something simple or have them eat out on their way home) , Ba tried to stress me out about that. What I was stressed out was Avni wasn't home and wouldn't answer her phone or I couldn't locate her phone. I finally heard from her at 10 that she was in Hayward. She didn't get home till almost 11:30 and that had really stressed me out. Megan's dad was dropping off 12 girls to their home which took him long time to get around to drop Avni off and her phone was dead, so I couldn't get in touch with her.

2018:
Nope! Not at all! Stress at work got resolved on its own by Sam taking me in his team. Feel so peaceful now. Kids are doing great! No reason to stress there! I think I have life and my mind in much better control. Feeling at peace. Things may not be going at the speed I Want or in direction I want, but I WILL get there.

Planning to hike with Guidos at Yosemite tomorrow. Big destressor right there. I haven't hiked with them in few years, so it will be good to spend time with them. I've missed hiking/camping with them.

How did I find my free time today?

2012:
Dropped Avni to Granada for football game, took Neil to Lucky's to cash out his quarters. Got $5 Amazon MP3 GC for every $20 AMC. So, after I got home, started buying some music, downloaded, cleaned up some past downloads, located orphan mp3s on iTunes. Talked to Pooja.

2013:
Barely any free time today! JK went to LA at 3AM. I woke up at 4 so that I can drop off Dada at work at 4:45AM. Came home, worked on budget for few minutes (so proud of myself that rather than jumping on FB, I was productive and worked on budget!), took Ba at 5:30AM to mom's home to make papdi. Then, I went to workout for CrossFit. Came to work, took a short nap in car before coming in. As soon as I go home, Neil and I are heading off for camping/hiking. I'm hoping to catch a short nap on the car ride though.

2018:

Not really.. Worked my usual 12 hours shift, which doesn't leave much for the free time.  did try to read for a bit after dinner, ut I was just too tired and fell asleep early. I think that's what I needed more. More sleep.

The computer I use the most is

2012:
Depends on where I am. If at work, I'm using my XP Windows with 2 big monitors. At home, I use my iMac. I hardly make use of my laptop. Only if I'm downstairs watching TV or something which is very rare or when I work from home.

2013:
Win 7 at work and iMac at home. I hardly spend time downstairs now, so I don't need to use laptop for that purpose (or I use iPad in that case). If I'm working from home, I use Win XP laptop.  That's the only use my laptop gets.

2018:
HP Windows laptop at work. I hardly use computer at home anymore. Mostly phone and iPad. When I go for senior care jobs or at mom's home, I do take my Macbook Air with me. But even then, I hardly ever open it. I do want to get back to scrapbooking, hopefully, I'll get back to it soon!

What is my favorite gadget?

2012:
I'm truly a gadget person. I just can't pick just one! It's my phone, camera, Blendtec, Kindle, iPad, iMac... list goes on!

2013:
Most probably my iPhone (rather my smart phone, not because it's an iPhone). I am able to take tons of pics, check emails, keep in touch with family and friends, read books, magazines, news articles, listen to music, staying organized with lists, notes and reminders.. list goes on!

2018:
It's still my iPhone, but lately, I'm enjoying playing with my Excalibur Dehydrator. Recenty, I dried mix vegetables, made powder in BlendTec and been using the powder in Idli. Plan to use it in paratha soon.

when was the last time I 'wasted' a day?

2012:
Plenty of time. On weekends in summertime. Sometimes, you just need the time/day where you don't do a thing. Gotta stop and smell the roses every once in a while. :)

2013:
Any day that I get trapped by Facebook and don't get anything else done! Hate to say it, but there have been many of those lately.

2018:
Two weeks ago, when they let us go home 6 hours early, rather than using it productively, I went home, and withing seconds,, I was in deep sleep as soon as I got home. Slept entire afternoon. I guess my body needed it, but still!

Does anyone owe me money?

2012:
I don't think so, because those that did, it's been forgiven debt for quite some time.

2013:
Nope. Well... the $10,000 deposit I paid for the Sannita house. They've canceled our contract almost 2 months ago. I'm still waiting for them to pay me back!

2018:
well, other than that $10,000 deposit payment that we never got back, no one else. Not that I can remember. It still hurts that we never got back that money. That was lots of money for us at the time (and still is), and we really could've used it. Things could've been different right now if we had that money.

Life would be easier if

2012:
I could focus on things one thing at a time!

2013:
Everyone got along with everyone else! Why can't people let go of their egos?

2018:
if I could get few more hours in a day!

What is the last thing I felt guilty about?

2012:
Getting upset with Avni about her browsing/chatting on Facebook?

2013:
Going for camping/hiking while moms are making papdi. But then, I've hardly helped with it in previous years, my staying home wasn't going to help much. Might as well enjoy the hiking with friends (of boy scouts).

Name 3 things I should've done today

2012:
Last two days have been very productive. Can't think of anything that I should've done and didn't do. Well, I missed posting this journal and write my journal in my happiness project, also I missed taking video of Neil and Avni for their 'question of the day'. I supposed I got so busy doing other things, I didn't have much time left for my routine stuff. Need to make sure that I don't ignore the stuff that really counts!

2013:

• Take a photo of my Friday lunch. I really should've take a photo today, since Sapna's family is here to drop her off and leaving tomorrow. Things just got too busy at the end and didn't get a chance.
• Finish up my monthly time report. But, I'll get to it in 5 minutes and make sure to send it off before leaving from work.
• Reply to Marc's email about meeting for lunch. I should get to it before I totally forget about it.

The last doctor's appointment I made was because

2012:
Hummm.. Last time I saw the doctor was almost 13 yrs ago? That would be my postpartum appointment, 6 wks after Neil was born! Haven't seen one after that.

For the kids... There was one time, Neil got allergic to something and had big infection kind of thing on his thighs. That was almost 8 yrs ago. Other than that, it's just for their regular vaccine shots and physical checkups.

2013:
Haven't seen the doctor yet, either for me or the kids!

Where would I like to go?

2012:
Humm... some place peaceful. It's a given that I've been craving to go to Nadiad lately. But other than that, I wouldn't mind going to some kind of get-together and hang out with friends for few days.

2013:
Update: I did go to India in January. Even hung out with Pinika in London for few hours. Last month, she visited with her family and we spent 2 days together. I would love to take kids and visit her in London.

2018:
Just went to the most peaceful place on earth - Himalayas in March! It couldn't get any better than that. And that too, with lots of friends and made new friends. This visualization thing really works!!!!

I would like to go on another epic hike, but with the kids this time. It was just an amazing experience that I would love to share with kids.

What is the most recent thing I learned?

2012:
I just learned to make Boy Scouts leadership neckerchiefs with yellow borders on sewing machine. It's been years since I've used sewing machine!

Other than that, I've learned not to take empty promises and stand my ground.

2013:
Over last few months, I've learned to keep my anger, disappointment under control and keeping cool.

What am I questioning?

2012:
I'm questioning if I should keep my websites or let them go? I'm questioning if I should commit to yet another digi assignment or just be free and move away from it all.

2013:
Update on website: as hard as it was for me, I let go of all of my websites few months ago. The best thing I did for myself. I get much more scrapping done now.

Right now I'm questioning if I should continue to work once JK gets funding and gets his company going. For almost a year, I've lost a passion for this job, mostly due to lack of work here. It will be hard to continue on when there is no need for it.

Which decision do I wish I didn't have to make?

2012:
I wish I didn't have to decide between letting Pooja keep buying the food from cafe or supply homemade food. Of course, she loves homemade food much better than cafe food any day, but having to make it as her primary choice wasn't easy on me.

2013:
Financially, I haven't had to make any unpleasant decisions lately, largely because kids understand the situation and hardly ever demand anything. I couldn't have done it without their help!
On other front, last week I was working on Shutterfly book for Jan-June Project life. I had a good coupon/sale combo of 70% off and wanted to take advantage of it. I had to make a hard choice between completion and perfection. There were still several pages I needed to scrap and some more journailing I wished to include, but I had to let of and print the book as it.

How much is a gallon of milk?

2012:
Depends on where you buy it from. At Safeway, it's $6.39 for 2 gallons. At Costco, it's $5.19 for 2 gallons.

What new TV show I refuse to watch?

2012:
What TV show? I don't even have a TV! So, I don't know which TV shows are out there!

2013:
Still don't have TV. However, I do have subscription to Netflix and HuluPlus. But other than watching occasional movie with kids, I don't watch anything on it either.

What would I like to learn more about?

2012:
Considering I spent hours reading about sewing and canning, I do want to get my hands on sewing. I've already been canning my fair share with salsa, punjabi gravy, chhole chana, rajma... I'm doing ok with it. But sewing.. that's another thing. I've watching mom sewing my whole life as I was growing up, but never really took it upon me besides simple repair work. Just like mom, I would love to sew some outfits and home decor pieces.

2013:
While sewing still in my list, I would also like to learn more about home decorating. There are just so many neat projects out there!

Did I pay it forward?

2012:
Not really.. but tried to. I have older version of CS5 that I don't need anymore because I've got CS6 now. I tried to give it away to Darcy, but mine is Mac version and she has PC, so that didn't work. I have offered at lower price to others if anyone wants it.
Update: I did end up giving it away (free) to Darcy's friend that had Mac.

2013:
Now that kids have new phones, their old Android phones are our spare phones in case something happens to their current phones. I'm planning to mail one to Darcy so that she can use it as test phone for her font program.

2018:
It's only 7AM, but I think I've done some bit of it. I'm part of The Miracle Morning FB group and Chaitali was looking for accountability partner to wake up at 4 and I volunteered to check in with her every morning. As I was talking to her this morning, I told me to keep sharing my 'inspiring stories'. It does make you feel good to know you're making a difference in someone's life. I've only known her for a week, but hopefully it will be a lifelong friendship? I'd be honored to provide some kind of mentorship to her. She has young kids of 2.5 and 5 yrs of age.

What is the highest point of my day today?

2012:

Sharing the news with friends and family about Pooja moving to University lofts. It is so much better and upscale compared to her dorm and at almost 1/3 of the dorm price!!!

What can I learn from today?

2012:
Don't push your body. When it asks for rest, listen to it before your body crashes on you.

2013:
:) Your body is capable of doing things way more than you realize. Just with right training and persistence, you can surprise yourself! After 6 of CrossFit training, I was  about to deadlift 115lbs!!! I never in my dream thought that would be possible!!!

Who had the biggest influence on my day?

2012:
Today was Pooja's day. Dropped her off to her dorm and later we visited the apartment/hotel she had mentioned to move into, so rest of the day was taken up touring the place, bringing Pooja there, signing up the lease for next 9 months... It's going to be a huge change for Pooja. I'm happy for her and looking forward to her journey.

2013:
Neil? It was court of honor for his troop. I took masoor pulav for the pot luck, which everyone loved. We were there for about 3-4 hours.

What did I win?

2012:
Anuj's smile when I left iPad at his home for few hours after lunch until I went back after work to pick it up.

2013:
Gratitude from Kari. She's been having troubles lately towards end of the day to focus on work and over the last week, I've helped her out 4-5 times.

2018:
30 minute phone call with Avni!!! I miss that girl so much! I felt so good to talk to her after work! I think I went straight to sleep even without dinner after talking to her!

What did I have to wait for today?

2012:
Nothing really... I did come to work with Pooja, she dropped me off this morning. So, I needed to call her to pick me up. But she did come right away and didn't make me wait at all.

On the bigger scale, I'm just waiting for the miracle to happen! I've been waiting for so long for it that I've already stopped waiting on it.

2013:
Waiting on JK to give us the news that we can officially get the house.. not just the promise, but with the back up of  the funds.

2018:
Waiting for the bed frame for my queen mattress that I just bought. I've had twin mattress that mom gave me when I moved in to apartment. I'm graduating to queen after three years!!!